DECADENCE

the past couple of weeks have been crazy. absolutely mad.

no time to stay home and vegetate anymore. projects, tests, jamming, gigs, late night suppers, the works.

life is good though. life is good. i can feel my ability as a drummer gradually improving by the week. i can feel my life in poly coming to an end very sooon. but first, theres 5 exams waiting for me. one after the other. once i rape those exams i am a free bird!

after that, GENTING! immediately after GENTING, its BANGKOK!

life is good, but kenneth is gonna be poor. I still want this


macs are glorious

PC = Piece of Shit

Panic! At The Disco - But its Better If You Do

Soundtrack of your life:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't Lie.


Opening Credits:

Metric - Monster Hospital

"I fought the war but the war won"


Waking Up:

Pulp - Help The Aged

"Help the aged, one time they were just like you. drinking, smoking cigs and sniffing glue"



First Day At School:

Suede - Lazy

"Cause you and me all we want to be i lazy"



more like everyday at school



Falling In Love:

The Vines - Highly Evolved


...So fucking unromantic



Fight Song:

Nick Drake - Time Has Told Me



they got my fight song mixed up with the falling in love one.



Breaking Up:

The Feeling - Blue Piccadilly


"Maybe someday you'll forgive me twelve stops and home"




Prom:

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move




Life's Ok:

Radiohead - Lucky


"kill me again with love. Its gonna be a glorious day"



Mental Breakdown:

Relient K - Chapstick, Chapped Lips and Things Like Chemestry




Driving:

Joy Division - The Kill




Flashback:

The Shins - Mine's Not A High Horse




Getting Back Together:

The Datsuns - Harmonic Generator



(huh?)



Wedding:

Coldplay - Trouble




(good luck to my lucky lady.)


Birth of Child:

Radiohead - Black Star



(not a very happy family i'm gonna have)



Final Battle:

Humanleague - Don't You Want Me Baby


"You were working as a waitress in a cocktail bar"


(right..)



Death Song:

The Unicorns - Child Star

"I'm not a fan of yours anymore"




Funeral Song:

DJ Shadow - Midnight In a Perfect World



(quite apt)



End Credits:

The White Stripes - Dead Leaves and The Dirty Ground

Hello 2007

So its like this, i stopped blogging for more than half a year. and i still feel gay-like-fuck to blog.

but this is 2007. stranger things have happened. I've been to a couple of blogs, i've talked to a couple of people. and their all unoptimistic about this year.

actually, so am I. last year i was 20, and i dont know for the love of me, what the fuck i managed to accomplish. I've managed to alienate myself as well as others around me. I've managed to almost completely isolate myself with someone else.

emotional stress, monetary worries. check.

good times with friends? a couple.

putting myself out there? yes.

was it worth it? how the fuck would i know, i didnt even get a chance.

meeting 180-turn people? yesyesyesyesyes.

figured new direction in life? yes, several times. as yet undecided.

losing faith in God and family? check.


now i just look at myself and say: fuck. i'm 21 this year, and i feel all fucking alone.

So you see, 2007 has to get better.

a heart thats full up like a landfill
a job that slowly kills you
bruises that won't heal.

Pink Floyd - Breathe

Breathe, breathe in the air.
Don't be afraid to care.
Leave but don't leave me.
Look around and choose your own ground.

Long you live and high you fly
And smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry
And all you touch and all you see
Is all your life will ever be.

Run, rabbit run.
Dig that hole, forget the sun,
And when at last the work is done
Don't sit down it's time to dig another one.

For long you live and high you fly
But only if you ride the tide
And balanced on the biggest wave
You race towards an early grave.

Gorillaz - Hong Kong

my favourite guitarist and brother-in-word-and-deed,
nicholas "haywire" matthew chia.

sorry i couldnt make it for the gig on friday.
this is for you.

this guy here is talented, but more than that, hes hardworking. and that goes a long way in music.

"guys wanna be like him, girls wanna sleep with him!"


******

bye bye TEP, hello classical.

bye bye everyone else, hello familiar faces once more.

hello, you.


time to start afresh.




















Start anew.

Stereophonics - Mr Writer

the time since my birthday has been almost, almost nothing but absolute trouble.

my 20th birthday wasnt that fantastic, you could say it was the worst one i've ever had. but the remaining sane company made up for it greatly. thank you guys.

now, living my regular monday to friday life, its gotten hell complicated. lines have been drawn, phone calls have stopped being made. acquaintances chucked. friendships strained.

all because of love.

now in carmen's words, i wanna get high and wasted, just to escape momentarily from all this.


my actions do not represent my intentions. thats the problem.